Hi

I'm back.. I'm going to try to keep this up... lost motivation as I hit a plateau.. I know that it's normal but I really hit a wall. I fell all the way off the wagon, I was ground down into the dirt. I am slowly emerging. Trying to find a new weight watcher meeting leader that will interest me. Here we go.. I went backwards by 10lbs. I'm back down 5lbs.. working slowly... oh and back over 300.. sigh..

I finally hit 50lbs!!!

So I'm down a total of 52.4lbs.. you are now reading a blog of someone under 300lbs! I'm excited but I still have a long way to go. I've read a lot of inspirational stories of women who've won their battle of the bulge and doing it over time. I'm done trying to look for the quick fix.. the fix is my health and conquering this the right way is the best way for me.  I have so much to be thankful for, I continue to thank God on a daily basis when I've been blessed to see another day. I can feel myself growing spiritually and knowing that the steps that I'm taking in my life are inspiring those around me makes this all the more rewarding!

Stay Tuned!

Today is Weigh in day...

To date I've lost 43.8lbs... last week I had a 1.8lb gain which I think was a lot of water weight. I've been hitting the gym hard.. eating has been on track with a few slips here and there but nothing excessive. My body is changing, I'm wearing a new dress today.. that is ... wait for it..  A SIZE SMALLER!!! I'm super excited about that but it's also giving me the desire to keep going.. today.. I think I will be down to a total of 48lbs.. fingers crossed.. that is sooo close to 50lbs.  Then my next goal will be 75 then 100... I figure if I think about it in 25lb increments then it won't feel so overwhelming.

For breakfast I had coffee, oatmeal and a banana. I have a Healthy Choice entree for lunch.. and I'm going to grill chicken for dinner tonight. I'm excited ... still excited after 6 months in.

Talk you later!

Since my brother called me out...

I have not posted in a while, I feel like I've been really struggling with staying on track. Well... after coming back from vacation that is. It's hard when you're the only one who is trying to make good decisions about what you eat. I've been back and forth since I've been back for a week. I really focused today and I went to the gym yesterday.. .remembering this is a life change not a diet! I will be back later to update more

I'm back for real this time.. lol

I decided that I'm so close to losing 50lbs that I need to get back on track. I never fell all the way off but I was really loose with tracking. I think it's been a few weeks since I've used my online tracker for food. I still kept a running total in my head of what I was eating though. I've also been working out more regular.. I can run without wanting to pass out.. well after 20 seconds.. now I'm up to 30 seconds before I'm having a heart attack... kidding.. I feel better, my clothes are fitting differently.. I can't see the progress per say.. but others can. That makes me feel good, but also makes me feel like I was a beached whale before... I'm sticking through this till the end!

I'm BACK!!!!

May 23, 2011

So I took a break from posting.. I begin to feel like it wasn't helping me.. I felt like I dreaded posting. I figured it out.. I didn't want to post everyday about what I ate but how I felt. So here's so a new start!

I haven't fallen off.. I'm way over 100 days. In my absence I've received my 10% award, my 16 week award and my 25lbs award. I felt it was a little sad that I received my 25lbs before I got to 10%.. that meant I was way too big! Good thing, I said goodbye to that number in January and I'm not looking back.

My life has taken such a crazy turn. Turmoil causing highs and lows but I'm still not giving in. I'm won't say I haven't had my setbacks but I'm staying faithful. This summer we want to take our kids to the amusement park. Last year we went to Six Flags and I was so big I couldn't fit on any of the rides. I tried to act like I didn't care but I really wanted to break down and cry. So my goal this year is the fit.

So far I've lost 36lbs. I'm a little behind where I planned to be but that's not going to deter me. I have started to work out more and I can tell that it's making a difference. I can jog and play with my kids without getting winded.

Another thing happened, I met Julie.. she has been a true inspiration for me to get back to expressing myself.. so Julie.. thank you!

Well until next time.

Day 98.. I will catch up one day

Just an update about what's been going on. I've been in a state of depression.. I was diagnosed with Bell's Palsy. This is a virus that causes inflammation of a nerve that affects one side of your face. I haven't given up on weight watchers, but I did take a break from my blog.. I didn't feel like I could write with the same enthusiasm. I do want to post that as of today I am 318.4lbs.  I have lost a total of 33lbs since the start. I'm very excited and I celebrated with a Churro :)